|How I feel about life, right now.|
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Get It Together, Lady!
Alternate title: Why I Suck At Life. So, I am in a full on shame spiral these days. Overwhelmed doesn't even do it justice. I feel like there's so much crap that I need to be doing, and I'm not getting anything done. And I don't mean "I really should wash those baseboards" kind of stuff. I'm talking therapies, educational needs, disability services...and those baseboards. Skeletor has been making remarkable improvements with his speech and his behavior, but there is still so much to do. I look at all these blogs and articles, and, where they used to inspire me to action, they now seem to exhaust me. There is so much that I could be doing for my son and for my other children, but I can't seem to find the forward momentum to do one more thing. And I'm not okay with this. I'm an over-achiever. I always have been. And I'm not used to having to try so hard at things. But this whole special needs parenting shebang is kicking my ass all over the place. I truly have to get it together. Because I can do better.